Autumn has a strange effect on me.
Always.

It makes me blue and grey,
Puts me into the reflective mood,
Much more than usual.

I think about the people I loved,
Those I have lost touch with;
Those I should appreciate,
Those I should stay away from;
Where I am now,
And where I will go next.

While I was thinking about my career,
Somehow I considered settling down -
Job, family, perhaps even going out with someone...
But that thought broke away immediately,
When I figured that it is difficult,
If I would like to maintain my lifestyle,
With options of life being kept open.
Guess that means that in the end,
I don't really dig going back to Singapore.

Yes I am procrastinating from thesis.
YT & May will understand this painful paradox.