Today was "I-wanna-disappear" day,
But I ended up bumping into a handful of people.

Caught up a little with FY over coffee,
And I ended up brooding more than I wanted to.
I know I've been telling people,
That there aren't always answers to questions,
And we can't get closure for everything,
But I am just the kind of person,
Who will be very unhappy,
If I have to live with the lack of closure,
And the lack of answers.

* * *

Been feeling quite down on and off for the last few days.
And no it isn't about the 'lao hong' thing anymore.

I need some changes in my life.

A change of career,
A change of friends,
A change of life... ...
Perhaps?
How much happier will I be?
Honestly, I can't say for sure.

Something that may satisfy all the above,
Is to get a job overseas (or an overseas posting).
I had told myself that 'we' shall look at that option,
In about two to three years' time,
But the truth is,
I am running out of patience -
Perhaps with myself.