Always look on the bright side of life
*whistles*

That song's been ringing in my head.
It's a good song, really,
Cos it works the way it was meant to.

Went Fort Canning as part of the course,
And learnt quite alot of stuff about Singapore's history.
Pretty interesting.

Met up with Jean H at 8ish at Wisma,
Encouraged her friend Shaoling to buy a Sookee diamond ring,
Cos it was quite a nice cut - both in design and price.
Headed off to chill, despite the rain.
Avoided Mad Monks, because we're tired of kids.
Went to Actors, where there is really a better crowd & nicer seats.
Ilona (the princess, she insists) came with Ashley, followed by Justin.
[ Yar I realised I spelt her name wrongly the last time! ]
Had a couple of Hoegaardens at a yummy price,
[ And I'm now having my Le Fruite Defendu at home! ]
IIlona and Ashley were loads of fun,
Perhaps because they were a little high from their wine tasting session earlier.
Whatever it is,
It was a great evening despite all the mess going on, outside.

I'm being forced to blog by the beef jerkies,
Plus a comment in someone else's blog.

Don't know if anyone noticed,
I don't quite like sarcasm and don't employ it as often as I wish to,
Because it is the lowest form of insults.

Here goes my attempt,
To decipher comments some people left in a previous entry.
Do tell me if I didn't interpret it the way you meant it,
Cos like I said
--- I don't get what you're saying. --
Hence I couldnt have been sarcastic,
And I'm not mentioning names in case people kao bei again.

Appreciate my efforts,
Cos this entry came with proper thoughts.

To the one who has expectations from me,
What do you expect ?
What did you expect me to think ?
You think you're being "giving" by leaving beef jerkies?
In what way have you been "giving" to me?
This is why I said I have no idea what you are talking about.
I never said I was insulted or anything,
I only said we are different.
You were the one who insinuated feeling insulted first.
So were you trying to say that it's an insult looking like me,
Or are your just so very sensitive you felt hurt that I didn't think we look alike?
No matter how you felt,
Your defender has already spoken for you.
Yes, it is a blatant personal attack.
Go see it for yourself - you should have seen it already.

It is damn tough trying to be nice,
And I have every single right to say that there is no use being nice,
Because despite me being nice,
People still had to talk about me behind my back.
You think you're damn nice?
Then why did you leave barbed comments?
Nice people don't go to people's house,
To complain that the owner has shit furniture in the house.

Miss Watever,
Friendships are meant to be treasured,
And I do treasure my friends a lot.
Ask Celine, ask Kay-lene,ask Sven&Nette (alphabetical order, thank you)...
I don't even need to justify myself to my true friends.
I guess I've just opened my eyes to see for myself,
Who are the people who really care about me,
And who are the people who are only paying lip service.
I've learnt that there really isn't a point trying so hard
To maintain a friendship that is one-sided.
Who are you to judge me anyway?

The girl who said she wouldn't read my blog,
I don't know what brought you back to this site,
Can I say it's disappointing to know that you are judging me based on a few lines typed,
Instead of what you know of me those times we've spent together?
See, this is what I meant when I said you don't mean it when you talk about friendship.
I don't think you've really learnt anything from reading my latest entries,
Unless they made you learn that you have taught me what it means to be less serious.

If you two (or is there three?) are still feeling disturbed,
We should really talk about this some day,

Chill, folks,
There's nothing worse than the war and SARS nowadays.

Getting super-sotong.
Was suppose to watch Chicago with a friend at PS yesterday,
Happily went Orchard --- and even thought I was early.
Heng I reached PS in time to catch the full show.
Great show, despite all the snips.
Musicals always put me into the RahRah-mood.

I'm losing focus because of you.
I'm losing sleep because of you.
Things could have been easier,
If this dream of mine didn't include you.
Stef,
I'I'm trying my best for you.

Everyone,
Cross your fingers & hold your thumbs for me.

Watching day.
First watched Cloud9 With An & Evan at Esplanade,
Then caught Just Married with Per at AMK.
Cloud 9 was very well done.
Can't find a word to do the play justice,
But there is every reason for it to be NC-16 ;]
It was 3.5 hours long,
Hence I couldn't make it for the Aussie fair.
Damn.
The movie was definitely not worth the money,
But now I'm in love with Venice !
Motivation to save for Europe trip ! :D

Thanks to Per's psycho-ing,
Bought Baci chocolates.
Not cheap, but damn nice.
Heard about them long ago,
But always thought they were only sold at airports.
There were 2 pieces of choc,
And the quote that came along with mine said,
Kisses easily stolen are soon forgotten.
Ha! How true, how true.

Back to blogging after a good break.
Was a long week cos I was working my ass off.

Met An on the train to town,
Where I met Evan and Jason-the-guy-with-a-damn-chio-sister.
But I've never seen the legendary babe.

However, I did see a few babes at Monks today.
The LeeHwa Model, whatever her name is.
I still insist she doesn't look that hot from the back,
But her looks almost blew me away.
Monks was filled with kids today.
When Sven and I arrived at 10pm,
Many of them young punks were already drunk & rolling all over.
The Rollin' Stone-butches.
Hur hur.

Chilled with Sven, Sophir & Jamie,
Met new people like Jerome, Magdeline, Diana & Rachel..
Magdeline was damn funny,
Cos she was trying to raise cab fares home by selling "Jack stickers".
Yes, stickers which said 'Jack'.
And she did it in English, Chinese and Malay!
Things stopped being funny when they said I reminded them of Jovin.
GEE.
Go clean your eyeballs.
We so do not look alike, not now at least.
Yar those who love Jovin can come slam me.
While those who love me, please step forward to pat my head.
We are just different, ok?

In case it isn't obvious enough,
These two specimens are what you'll get,
If you cross an octopus with a millipede.

This doodle is up a little late, but who cares?
Sven drew that day we went to eat at Heeren's Sakae.
Cos we were talking about having many arms and legs,
So she can wear all her watches and shoes.

Went Monks again yesterday.
So what's new ?
Met up with An first,
Then met Sophir, Wendy, Von, Kev, etc.
It's good chilling together.
Kinda reminded me of old times at Zouk.

Damn packed yesterday, lots of people.
Including people I haven't seen in years, literally.
Including people I used to like and their current lovers. *shrug*
Including people I like. :]

Cheryl Lek did it again yesterday.
Drunk Cheryl pulled me so hard towards her we both fell on the floor,
Me on her,
So everyone thought it looked like I was gonna screw her.
Screw lah.
Now I have a bruise on my left knee.
There was a point I actually felt overwhelmed,
Thanks to the nonstop yakking from her many gal-friends.
It's amazing how they were all in-sync despite the level of alcohol in their blood.
Let's see.
Michelle, Angie, Esther, Josie, Serene(?), somehalfmalaygirl.
I'm sure I missed out one or two.
By the way,
It's damn irritating when drunk people insist that I'm drunk.
I think only Michelle and I were sober among that crowd.
Cheryl's chocolate cake was good though. :D ~
And Cheryl has got nice friends - both groups that I've met.

Yesterday was enjoyable, really.
I should really start making an effort to meet the good friends I've been neglecting.

The intoxicated Jack is dying for good free flows.
Honestly, I only blogged because I thought that icon was damn cute. :P

I have a new problem.
Can't seem to keep my fingers from typing out what I think.
And of course,
Lots of people have been damn unhappy.

But I least I don't behind people's backs, you know.
I talk in front of them, if not to them.
To the people who've been talking behind my back,
Thanks for helping me check who my real friends are.

Someone told me she thinks I've changed,
And that she isn't the only person to think so.
They probably feel I ain't as nice as I was before,
But who wants to be extra nice when nice people only get played ?

[here's a chinese song to finish off the topic about being nice]

Decided to add on to Sven's detailed account of Friday. *
Somewhere in between the confrontation,
LG said, "You were talking about my pimple right? You think I'm stupid is it?"
I forgot to reply 'cos I was so sleepy.
Wanted to reply, "No, how stupid can you be when you're going Monash?"
Too late now.

Dawn's really oversensitive, I suppose.
Dawn should have talked to Jill too.
Because that very same night Sven and I were talking abt Luo Han fishes,
Jill and I were talking about her daddy's precious swimmers.

Frankly, my adrenaline was pumping that time! (yar but also sleepy)
Haha first time since November.
I thought she would pick a fight,
And I was all excited to see how my martial arts level is after all the years of slacking.
Quite disappointed when she left,
Cos it was like some comic-relief session which wasn't even funny.
So boring, so DUH.
Ok not that I really wanted to see blood shed,
But it was like, what was that for?

* refer to ifeelqueasy.

Back in action after many days of rest.
Only because I need to openly voice out my views,
And make sure they remain somewhere,
Where Sven and Nette can read it over and over again,
Should they ever forget what I think.
(This is gonna be an entry longer than all those I've written in the past.
And no, I'm not going to be nice, so be prepared.)

Both of you,
Have gone through almost exactly the same things.
'Betrayal'.
Physical pain.
Emotional hurt
Mental Trauma.
Pointing fingers,
From each other & from pals of each other.

Ironically,
Instead of understanding each other better,
You two love to compare the hurt,
Talk about how you yourself feel so shit thanks to the other person.
Tell me, is this simply because it is always easier to forgive yourself than the one who loves you?

And there is too much assumption.
Wrong assumptions,
That the other person doesn't care.
That the other person can't feel.
Then again, it is hard to see, when you only think about yourself.

Yes, the one with the 'upperhand' always see less.
To think I always thought people get a clearer overall picture when they look from the air.
When you look, do you really see?
When you listen, do you really hear?

I can say a million things, but nothing really matters,
Because in the end, it is up to you both.

Happy 22nd Birthday, Sven.
Now we're both 22! :]

Burnt out, yet again, after a long day at work.
Shall give myself a break and not go to work on Sunday.
Got a meeting at SMU anyway.

*rewinds*

Flew around Singapore on Friday.
Played detective, counsellor, big brother, etc.
But that, is another story.

Mad Monks on Friday was pretty good.
An & Jasmine joined us for the first hour.
They're real good company,
And a refreshing change from the usual :P
Too bad they had to leave early for Siam!
The night of Awarded kisses & hugs.
Ya right.

When Jack doesn't give a shit,
Jack doesn't give a shit.
Told An, "No one's gonna stop me from having fun tonight!"
And no one did, no one could. >:]