Saturday, February 28, 2004

I'm not feeling great,
But I'm not dead.

'Are you ok?'
'Yeah.'
'Are you pissed off?'
'No....'

I'm just frustrated.
Ok, I am pissed off.
When people design,
Can they take a look at the accurate drawings,
(i.e. CAD drawings)
Before assuming everything will fit together,
As beautifully as the dreams they weave??

Su-lin insisted architects lead a better life,
Compared to engineers,
Both in terms of money and hours.
What total rubbish.

I'm not dead,
But I'm not feeling great.

Friday, February 27, 2004

Is it possible,
To be in love with something,
Yet not realise the situation,
Because you always thought that
It was something else you fancied?
How about if it was someone?

I always said I like tea more than coffee.
Today it occurred to me that I like coffee more.
Maybe things have changed,
Since I last declared that I like tea.
Maybe things have changed,
But I don't want to think that things have.
Maybe things haven't changed,
But I think changes are imminent.
*shrug*

I always thought I liked Natalie Portman,
Thanks to Star Wars I.
After looking at pictures of Keira in SWI,
In which she was playing decoy queen for Natalie,
I suspect all these while,
Keira was the one I really liked.

When will we really know?

Thursday, February 26, 2004

Nightmare in Frankfurt.

An emergency call from home.
When I rushed to my grandparents',
I saw the feet of two bodies,
Through the door of two seperate rooms,
In a puddle of blood.
I felt my heart stopped.
And I woke up.

Called home once I arrived in London.
Didn't speak about my dream.
Everything sounded fine,
And I was relieved.

As I grew up,
I slowly lost the ability,
To speak in the dialect my grandparents use.
Despite the reduced verbal communication,
Deep down inside we all know we still care.

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Viva K�lnia
Viva K�lnia


Sounds of the Frankfurt continue to ring in my head.

Arrived at Frankfurt Haupbahnhof at 1ish,
On the cold Saturday afternoon,
After 2 long bus trips and a short flight.
Took at walk along Kaiserstrasse to the R?mer,
Passing some museums along the way.
Also spotted the famous buildings,
Including KPF's, Foster's, & Deutsche Bank's twin towers.
Debit & Credit, they were called.
Loved the R?mer for the 15th century houses,
And also the festive mood injected.
Cannons were fired as German songs blasted.
Suddenly I could imagine WWII,
And I really thought about world peace.
Met Su-lin, Sonja & Daniel back at the main train station,
And we proceeded for a short walk to the R?mer,
Then along the Maine River.
It was a lovely evening with a pinkish orange sunset,
And surreal looking barren trees lining the boulevard.
Sonja took us to a traditional German bar for dinner,
Where we had this tasty apple wine.
This French girl, Claire, randomly ordered a sausage dish,
And ended up with wobbly sausages.
One of them was the infamous black sausage,
Which was made from animal blood.
*twitch*

Headed to K?ln on Sunday morning,
With Su-lin, Sonja, Daniel & another Daniel.
On the train to K?ln,
We had the first taste of the German festive mood.
Trolleys of beer, food, etc.,
Everyone dressed up in fancy party costumes,
Singing German drinking songs.
As Daniel2 put on a red nose & a cap,
I felt too normal.

When we arrived at K?ln,
Henning, Sebastian & Philip,
Who were dressed in surgery costumes,
Were already waiting for us,
In front of the famous cathedral,
Which turned out taller than I expected.
Armed with a large bottle of Kaiser beer each,
We headed towards the parade ground.

Kramella
Struchia
Aluuf


Su & I rattled words by the sound of it,
To get into the spirit of things.
It paid off,
For we went with nothing,
But returned to Frankfurt,
With bags of sweets & flowers,
Thrown at us by the parade folks,
And off the floats that passed.
Interesting enough,
Some people gave out things like,
Dishwashing sponges, teabags & toothbrushes!

Went shopping the next day,
After watching a brief snowfall from Sonja's kitchen.
Bought a trenchcoat despite it being not perfect.
At least it was black.

Went ice-skating in the evening.
Was reminded of Bin & Gab.
Headed for dinner at a place called Hannibal,
And met a whole lot of Deutsche Bank folks.
The food & drinks were great,
And the atmosphere was very chill.

Left on early Tuesday morning,
To catch a late morning flight from Hahn to London.
Checking in my luggage because of my Swiss army knife,
Turned out to be a fatal mistake.
The luggage took so long to be delivered at Stansted,
That I missed my National Express bus into London.
Forked out an extra ?10 to get on the next bus,
Only to suffer a very delayed trip.
London is just very bad at reacting to snow & rain.
There was a German girl sitting next to me
Who was nice enough to offer me her chocolate biscuits.
Coincidentally, she visited her friend in London last summer,
When her friend was training under DB.
Although her friend isn't Sonja.
I'm pretty sure Su or Sonja knows her friend.

The world is not that large,
Yet we have only seen so little.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Architecture.
Something that doesn't usually go well with relationships.
Alex told me today at 9ish in the evening,
That she has to go home before she gets divorced,
Because her husband was upset about her long working hours.

Reminds me of those studio days,
And those internship days at OD.
Vanessa had said to me,
'When we live together next time',
I will be virtually not at home half the time,
And she might even have to pick me up from work!

I'm developing a phobia for relationships.
When there isn't even enough time to do my own stuff,
Where does one find the time to spend with another?

+

Broken dreams.

Felt pretty lousy at work today,
For a reason I have yet to figure out.
Started thinking about what I used to do.
Photography, song-writing, doodling, loving...
I'm starting to suck at all of that.
Where did it all go?

And my dreams seem to be drifting,
Further and further beyond my reach.

+

The bags are packed,
And it's time to go again.
Frankfurt, here I come.

Thursday, February 19, 2004

Wanted to get another TimeOut poster,
But some stupid guy tried to charge me for it.
I refused, of course.

Went into a mamashop on the way to work,
And the nice shop owner gave it to me.
It was already tucked behind the fridge.
The best part is,
It has a hard backing!
To repay his kindness,
I bought a copy of FHM.
Partly also because the KKforum,
Mentioned that she was 2nd in its list,
Of the 100 sexiest women.

Horrors of all horrors ---
Discovered during lunch that it was the wrong issue!
The article was in Feb's issue,
But I got March's instead.
Came with many pictures of scantily dressed women,
'Cos it is the special 'sex' issue.
I was too embarassed to let anyone see me read it.

Brought it back to the shop to change.
Nice shopowner said he'll try asking,
To see if distributors still have Feb's copy.
If so, I will be able to change it tomorrow.

Wish me luck!
Ebay is Evil.
Just bought more stuff!

Finally,
Dave McKean works in my possession.

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

Tesco Strawberry Crisps.

" You're back!
Where have you been for the past 2 days?!
No, I haven't bought anything to replace you..."

- proceeds to open the box -

"Oh my god!
You've lost weight!
And you've lost all your strawberries but one!"

Am I being very difficult,
Or is it normal to react this way,
Towards a box of cereals,
That was bought just 3 days ago?

Monday, February 16, 2004

Was so tired I forgot to give my speech of appreciation.
Well, better late than never.

May
Thanks for spending time,
Seeking alternative routes for my trip.
Know it must be quite difficult,
Especially when you wanted to go,
A thousand times more than I do.

Bin
Thanks for the great conversation.

Celine
Thanks for calling,
And making me feel like I'm not forgotten.
Just watched the British Film Awards.
19-year-old Scarlett Johansson,
Nabbed the Best Actress award.
You know you are getting old,
When people younger than you,
Start winning awards in the entertainment world.
Or if they start playing in the EPL.

If someone ever goes to JB,
Can they help me grab some DVDs?

Valentine's Day was spent with Bin & FY,
Thanks to the wonders of the internet.
Somewhere in between,
I went out to get some beer from Tesco,
And nicked a Keira Knightley TimeOut poster along the way.
I can't believe what I'm doing,
For an actress who is barely 19!

Today at capoeira,
I got to know this English girl called Miranda.
Found out that it isn't the Brit accent that is charming,
It is just the way some people speak.

Saturday, February 14, 2004

My head still hurts,
But I can't take medication,
Because I just had some alcohol.

I'm on the forums of this Keira Knightley site,
And it seems like I'm the 2nd oldest around.
Going through 38 pages,
With the kids writing about fanmailing Keira,
And how they got her signatures.
Woohoo, her agency is near where I work.

I am going mad.
Friday the 13th.
My head hurts.
I think I am stressed up.

Ebay & Paypal issues,
Poor modelling abilities,
Computer being spammed by porn ads,
Leave application issues...
Ryanair tickets just went up by 4 times!

The last thing I needed,
Was a man coming up to me in Soho,
On the pretext of buying cigarettes from me,
But kept asking me if I was looking for young girls.
And whenever I said no,
He would say something like,
'What the fuck is wrong, I'm paying for the cigarettes!'
Then he mumbled,
And he left without paying for the fags.
Freakin' cheap wanker!

Bought a Gia DVD from HMV,
In hope of cheering myself up.
Where are my paracetamols?

Friday, February 13, 2004

Thursday.
Had the shittiest day to date,
Of my working life in London.
Deleting the wrong file,
Gave wrong calculations,
All thanks to miscommunication.
Also received my ebay BS Beatles shirt,
That looked quite dubious in quality.

You know it is the ultimate,
When the only perceivable joy was derived,
From the practising 3D-modelling skills.

And in the evening,
Nicole emailed from California,
About how she received the calender & stuff.

Then everything became ok. :]

Thursday, February 12, 2004

Alex has been handing Rowntree fruit pastilles to me,
Because she hates the taste of the black ones.
"But they tastes like Ribena," I said.
"I hate Ribena."

Keira Knightley graces the cover of Time Out!
The first thing director John Maybury said to her when they met,
"I don't want any of your bloody pouting in my film."

Eh, why do I have to wait till summer,
To watch Keira kick ass in King Arthur?!
:/

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

How often is it that we look at an ex-lover,
And wonder what happened to the person,
Whom we used to love so deeply?

Sometimes we spoke on the phone,
And I would wonder,
Who is this familiar stranger I am talking to?
Sometimes when I look at her,
I would wonder,
Where the hell has her new partner,
Taken the person I used to loved?

When people lose their hearts,
Do they also lose their souls?

Monday, February 09, 2004

Winchester day trip on Saturday,
With Ming who wanted to see the cathedral.
Followed by dinner at Ming's place.
Yummy curry instant noodles.
Caught I'm A Celebrity, Get Me Out Of Here.
Jordan aka Kate Price was whoa.
Triple silicon job, they said.
Too large for my taste.
However her figure is super.
Very sexy legs.

Attended JW's farewell party at Freedom.
The club scene is really not for me.
Imagine having your ex & ex-flings & current flings, etc.,
All around the same few tables,
And having little snoggin' sessions with some of them.
A difficult situation arose when this girl,
Was alternating between snogging JW & her bro.
Probably why JW's friends called her a slut.
Met some nice folks though,
Including Mia who offered me some pills called ProPlus,
Josie(?) who was offering everyone ammonia to sniff,
And 2 Aussies Yuko & Shannon.
Think Shannon looked pretty fine.
After she said her major was psychology,
I made a terrible mistake by saying,
"Uh-oh, are you gonna read me?"
It is one of those things people keep hearing,
Till they are so sick of it.

Chilled with the folks after capoeira today,
At Makan then Mau Mau.
Got to know some of them a little better.

Had beef straganoff for dinner,
While watching Mal�na on DVD.
Monica Bellucci is quite a babe.
Can't wait to get my hands on Gia,
To see one of my favourites --- Angelina Jolie.

Thursday, February 05, 2004

55.
Kilograms.
My new weight.
No longer should anyone say I am skinny.
Bah.

Printed an article for Alex's welfare,
About how sleep would help boost brain power.
Got Nicole a calender with snowboarding pictures.
It should arrive at her door before she does.

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Flatmate's girlfriend is coming to London,
To spend his birthday with him.
The best part of it,
Is that he still doesn't know about it.
How very very sweet of her.
I am so very envious.

I used to secretly called him Lucky Guy,
Until I got so drunk at a ball some night,
That I actually called him that in his face.

And this is why there is some pride,
Whenever I remember that this is the girl,
Whom I first met some years back at some camp,
And made me realise what was love at first sight.

I was right about this one, ha. :P

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

It could all be just in the mind.

Self-preservation took a break today.

Perhaps I should be grateful,
For the momentary joy & amusement.

Monday, February 02, 2004

Saturday.
Paid a visit at Eclipse Chelsea with Ming,
Where we had a good chat,
Over exotic fruitty cocktails.
Dinner was savoury crepes.
Following that was Kenneth's birthday party,
Held at a bar near London Bridge.
Must be the very first time in London,
I see so many Singaporeans gathered at one place.
Colin & Jia arrived before us.
Seemed like we were not only the oldest folks,
But also the most antisocial ones.
On the other hand,
Everyone was pretty much into their own cliques.
Needless to say,
Kenneth was totally sloshed;
Laurel was so cool & composed about it,
It impressed us all.

Ended up at a club around Clerkenwell.
Very cheap (& weak) drinks for a club,
And the shooters were rather tasty.
But the music totally sucked,
So we left after spending an hour there.

Was a rather good weekend,
Despite the high cost of living.