Blue skies & sunshine,
Finally paid Haninge a visit today.
For the past few days,
Or perhaps even weeks,
Were filled with grey clouds and rain.
The overcast skies caused complete dullness
- no sunlight and no shadows -
In this place I had imprisoned myself,
Behind heavy doors called The Thesis.

The bill for the great day came at night,
With the mercury dipping to zero.
It is worth it.

I chanced upon a very very old picture,
A picture of me with an ex and her beloved pet.
An indescribable and unexplainable feeling filled me,
Upon realising that none of us are with her now.
Hum, I am too sentimental.

To celebrated the my small achievement,
Of organising 25% of my theory segment,
I caught Batman Forever on TV.

Nicole Kidman was gorgeous (x100).
If all psychologists look like Dr Chase Meridian,
I am sure I wouldn't mind seeing one any time.

Check out the look:



Mmmmmm Tom Cruise must be stupid and blind.

I am an idiot.
No more messenging softwares for me.

I don't think I can hand up my draft on Friday.
There is just too much to write,
And to put in a coherant order.
Plus I have been procrastinating from the theory part.

If this was NUS,
I would be rotting in the graves by now.

Tack, Sverige.

International households are the best.

Thursday we had Tom Yam for dinner,
Friday we had Dutch pancakes for breakfast,
Saturday we had Italian (pasta) for lunch,
Followed by Mexican tortillas for dinner,
Sunday we had miso and onigiri for dinner!

Sachi said she had never bought rice in Japan.
This was unbelievable considering Jap culture...
Until she mentioned that her grandparents own rice fields.
And her grandmother makes miso paste.
AHHHHHhhh.....

Feeling incredibly lucky,
Gastronomically speaking.

Autumn has a strange effect on me.
Always.

It makes me blue and grey,
Puts me into the reflective mood,
Much more than usual.

I think about the people I loved,
Those I have lost touch with;
Those I should appreciate,
Those I should stay away from;
Where I am now,
And where I will go next.

While I was thinking about my career,
Somehow I considered settling down -
Job, family, perhaps even going out with someone...
But that thought broke away immediately,
When I figured that it is difficult,
If I would like to maintain my lifestyle,
With options of life being kept open.
Guess that means that in the end,
I don't really dig going back to Singapore.

Yes I am procrastinating from thesis.
YT & May will understand this painful paradox.

Everyone knows I am not the kind,
Who wants to be filthy rich,
Who want to go for all the luxury in life -
Blingbling, first class seats, 5 star hotels,...

For one of the first times in my life,
I want to have the money to throw,
To be at one of these resorts:

One & Only Maldives
Four Seasons Golden Triangle

There are a few more,
Not forgetting the Commune by the Great Wall.
No prizes for the right guess,
As to which one I would spend my night in.

I am getting so consumed by my thesis,
That my brain has been unable to work on it.
I smell trouble.
Deep deep trouble.

WOOOHOOO!

Diana, Mari and I,
Have been selected to participate,
In the ELDA+ Vox Juventus conference,
Held in Germany in late November.
They are going to pay for air tickets!

My Fuji F610 stopped at reading 999-9999.
Indicating that I have taken 9999 photographs,
Since its purchase a year and a half ago.

Really?

A quick check in the photography archives,
Confirmed that the numbers were inaccurate.
I have in fact taken more than 10000 pictures with it,
Since about 1000 pictures before.

It is pretty cool to hit the 9999,
In its own geeky way. 8-]

Fede & I had a nice talk,
In the middle of the house party,
When we got away from the house,
And went to the nearby playground,
While everyone else was partying like hell.

Mari & I also had a nice talk,
Sitting on the stairs at the Hus 3 entrance,
Smoking 1cm of the leftovers from last week,
While 'Lulu' is sleeping,
And the rest of the house gets wild in our living room.

Mieka & I had a skål with the Hallon-Stjarnafrukt cider,
Since it reminded us,
Of one of the first few sessions,
Of Swedish language lessons with Catrin last year,
While everyone else rambles on about other things.

It is so hard to work on thesis,
When everyone else wants to celebrate the end,
You know?

I am just very glad for these moments,
I got to spend some special time,
Talking with these individual kompis,
In our own very small bubble of something special.

When I am done,
The party will be doubley wild I swear.

Shakey Hands

So bloody restless
From the two cups of coffee
That I just needed to type something
Unfortunately the brain isn't working so well
So I can't be typing my thesis

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URGHS

Today is one of those low productivity BLAH days.
I feel kind of sick looking at the computer,
Although I haven't done so much today.

How I wish the postbox will bring,
Another unnamed envelope with spiffs,
Just like what happened last week,
When someone's friend sent 2 joints from Spain.
Poor quality ones,
But they were free, so...

I think I should take a walk,
But it is too cold,
And there is nowhere to go.

:S

I have removed the tagboard,
Because it was being disagreeable.
Hooray.

I am defering graduation,
Because I cannot finish my thesis by next week.

I am a little sad that Mermaid of the Soil,
Wasn't as well-liked as Shading Your Options,
Since I spent more time on the former,
And I also thought it was kind of romantic-tragic.

I am mildly disturbed,
When a person whom I barely know,
Told me that she doesn't think I can ever sell out.
And that she thinks I use too much of my heart.
"How do you prevent yourself from getting hurt?
Or do you even bother anymore? "

Humm.

Back to thesis.

First time at a live football match.
Brasil vs Ecuador at Solna football stadium.
Watching Brasil with Brasilians is fantastic.
We even laughed at people wearing items that said "Brazil".
"Z" is always an Americanised version of everything,
Is it not?

It was a very "old school" rectangular stadium.
I think the flood lights at the stadium,
Get people really high on adrenaline.
But being very Swedish,
The stadium was usually quiet.
By Brasilian standards anyway.

Managed to get on video,
Of Kaka scoring a winning goal.
Not the best quality uploaded,
But heck it is better than nothing.

Obrigado Joels for the tickets,
We really really had a good time.

I am a sucker for conversations that last.
I enjoy getting to know people -
Well at least those who might be worth knowing.
But I run the risk that when the process is disrupted,
I will be bugged by the feeling of loss.

I am looking for a break through in my thesis.
I was driven by my blind intention to be good,
Without realising earlier that this may not be enough.
So now I am struggling with coping with my initial faith.

This relationship I have with my thesis,
Is like a relationship with a memory.

Looking back,
I can still see where I came from.
But the route ahead,
It is invisible.

I am rambling, again.

1
People didn't have time to meet up,
Even when I am back home for a long time,
Cos they had to spend time with lovers.
Okay...

2
Once you have tasted betrayal,
It haunts you even in your dreams.
So the best thing is not to trust.
Ok I am not gonna give a damn anymore.

*deep breath*

How can anyone live with one type of music,
When music speaks to the soul,
And the soul has a thousand emotions?

The lastest download,
From Rage Against the Machine,
Spells out loud what I think :

Fuck You
I won't do what you tell me

Annoyance is greater than melancholy.
At least in the day time.
So I stopped my nostalgia for a second,
To hope that someone trips while tripping.

"Until There's Nothing Left Of Us"

Jack takes on Threadless once again.

For Kill Hannah Loves Threadless.





PS -
Yes I know the time could have
Been very well spent on my thesis,
But I really felt for the Mermaid concept,
So I couldn't help not designing.

You know you haven't been drinking much,
If 3 glasses of champagne can give you a headache.

Thesis is really life-changing.

2 friends who officially became
Master graduates of Architectural Lighting Design,
With their excellent thesis presentation.
Well done Di and Rod !
Plus Cat who came as a special guest,
Of course something had to happen:

Champagne at 5pm today.
A good break from the usual
hiding in the hellhole of mine,
Also known as Hus 3 Rum 10.

Since thesis submission is destroyed,
It is time to list some things,
That keep me going :

1) Smell of the cold rain and thunderstorm
2) Good music from The Last Kiss
3) More than decent conversations with people
4) Emails that about life in general

It will all be okay.
*fingers crossed*